||[Oct. 13th, 2014|03:16 pm]
It's funny, when you do something drastic like pack your bags and move to a new country, you kind of expect things to fall into place quickly. But of course, that doesn't happen. And as the days pass the falling into place part seems further and further away, because reality hits and you slowly figure out how things work here, and it's not at all like you imagined. |
Honestly, this whole thing has been an emotional roller coaster. I have to remind myself everyday to hold it together and not lose my shit, because honestly I feel like I'm just a few baby steps from getting there.
I don't know. I really don't know. I just did not think it would be this hard and it's even scarier wondering if it's going to be like this for much longer. I'm a little worried about my mental stability and about how long I can keep it together like this.