| Hope |
[Jun. 29th, 2009|08:33 am] |
Well, a lot has been happening, really. And, hopefully, a lot will happen. Good things, that is. :)
But right now, I have SO much to do. So, so much. Of course, me being me, I am way to lazy to do all of them right now. But i will, i will. After a few days of procrastination!
Honestly, I want the next month to fly by. But also, I don't want it to. August is going to be so different. I'll be in a new place, a new country, with new people, and sadly, quite alone. Unless I make friends soon, which is a task for me. But I don't want to ruin all of this with my extreme pessimism, so like last time, i'm going to sign off on a hopeful note.
I'm still keeping my fingers crossed. For the future. For the people I love. For everything.
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[Jun. 5th, 2009|06:54 pm] |
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OH. MY. GOD.
I, Shruti, got into NTU!
Shocking. Scary. Amazing!
I hope everything turns out well. *fingers crossed* |
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| This is it |
[May. 27th, 2009|11:46 pm] |
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| | Tell Me Why - Taylor Swift | ] |
91.6 % !!!
It's all over now i guess. Or rather, just begun. :) |
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| This, you've got to see |
[Apr. 21st, 2009|06:05 pm] |
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Just zoom in for the best fairy tale ever :D
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| Exams, summer and everything in between - 1 |
[Apr. 20th, 2009|06:16 pm] |
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Well like I said last time, I have much to say. On obviously nothing particularly important but lots all the same.
Firstly, I'm officially out of high school. Yay! Though I'm not too enthusiastic about leaving school, which has been my home for so long, I'm still really excited. Of course very scared too. Which brings me to the topic of COLLEGE. Yep. That word that totally and completely seems to freak me out. And can you blame me really? It's like all my life I've been working for this one thing, but now I don't even believe that I can get into college. Seriously. Apart from the fact that the whole college system is completely messed up in India. But that isn't an excuse. Though it really is unfair that only the best students can get into college on their own merit. What hurts the most is that I really used to be one of the 'best' students but after the last two years of - of so much really. Happiness, sorrow, new experiences and even heartbreak- so so much has changes. You won't believe me if I started. I just hate that I had to learn so much about life, so many lessons, valuable as they may be, at such a crucial point of my life, when I really should have just been studying as hard as I possibly could. After the fiasco that was eleventh grade, I really truly tried hard to rectify my mistakes and study in 12th, but I guess it was all in vain. I don't even want to start with how horribly my exams went. And at the end of the two years, I didn't even have what I began with. And do you know what I've been doing for the past two months? Ranting at every single opportunity I get. Which is just sad, even for me. So here's what I've decided. To Stop. And now. I think this whole thing has made me stoop low enough as it is. I am not going to let the last two years mess up the rest of my life. I know how ambitious I am, how much I want to do in life, and this is the best time to begin. There could be no better time. Three weeks are more than enough to sit and mope. Now I am so going to get on.
And guess what I got into the Australian national university. So what if I can't go? It's a great school.
So my battery is DOWN but I still have so much to say so hang in there!
P.S. I love Taylor Swift. In a purely musical sense :) |
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[Apr. 13th, 2009|08:22 pm] |
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So i logged in very enthusiastically having so much to say and all, but someone conveniently butted in, asked me a couple of questions i so did NOT want to answer, and completely crushed my mood.
Great. |
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| :) |
[Jan. 7th, 2009|03:58 pm] |
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| | I Hope You Dance -Lee Ann Womack | ] |
So right now i'm in a recklessly good mood for no ruddy reason. ok ok it's because of this song I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack. Gosh it is amazing, It just makes me want to NOT give up and work and be strong and happy.
It's great:)
Since New Year, this is the first time i'm happy. Seriously, so far, this 'new year' has been horrid.
Till I heard this song. |
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[Dec. 18th, 2008|01:56 pm] |
My new glasses are horrendous.
Blah. |
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[Nov. 15th, 2008|07:15 pm] |
Maybe
In another life
Another decade
Another era
As two different people
With different thoughts.
Maybe then
We would have.
Could have.
But not here
In this life
This decade
This era
As the people we are
With these thoughts
These feelings
These ideals. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2008|03:30 pm] |
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In the last month, several bomb blasts occurred in Delhi, Pakistan got a new president, dark energy was studied in France, presidential speeches were made, inflation took a toll, and many, many banks were closed down.
And while the rest of the world has been in turmoil, confusion has hit me hard as well.
Yep. You guessed it.
EXAMS.
It would be rather convenient to skip the whole exam talk and move on, but convenience is something that has to be earned. The exams were an utter disaster, and made me wonder why I was even trying. Hopeless. Horrible.
And I was actually optimistic about this year. Sheesh.
Atleast they're finally over.
I also watched three movies before my physics exam, but then again, we had four days. Not an excuse, i know. But still.
And a really nice one called Bella.
Well, holidays now. I wish I could sit back and relax, but I'm writing the SAT this saturday. So while everyone at school is holidaying in Munnar.. argh. I think I'll stop now. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2008|06:49 pm] |
Hm.
How does ANU sound?
Minus the home-sickness,
Okay okay, with the home sickness.
Brilliant, but terrible, i tell you. |
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| Back. |
[Aug. 6th, 2008|10:19 am] |
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| | Khuda jaane - Bachna ae Haseeno | ] |
Yes, i'm still alive, if only barely.
I've been completely caught up in something that's never bothered me before: life. There seems to be no time for anything, really.
Which brings to my mind one of my favourite poems:
'What is this life so full of care
We have no time to stand and stare.'
Terrorism has teken a turn out here: for the worse. I don't understand what's making me act so casual about the bomb blasts, but some emotions can't be portrayed, i feel.
School is school is school. Whirlwind of confusion, as usual.
Oh, and The Fountainhead, by Ayn Rand, is a MUST read, i tell you. It's life changing. A breath of fresh air. Also, my last book for i while. :(
I skipped school today, to study. I'm still terrified about 12th, but I've got over the initial fear, especially after doing pretty well in the first two tests. Though everything's still a little weird, I think i'm pulling through okay, so far.
Anyway, atleast I feel useful, with all this work. I'm trying not to burn out too soon, though i fear i may. Let's hope for the best.(!)
Cheers!
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[Jul. 18th, 2008|04:41 pm] |
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Terrible. Simply terrible i tell you.
I mean, even English, really??
why? |
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| The mind is a battlefield. |
[Jun. 29th, 2008|11:49 am] |
It's amazing how we all fight so many inner battles, winning and losing with ourselves all the time. Ultimately, we are left in this state of constant discontent, because we win and lose, both at the same time.
So much of pent up frustration. So, so much.
And insecurities galore.
Sigh. |
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| Things. |
[Jun. 28th, 2008|01:43 pm] |
Everything's all weird and confusing at the moment. Nothing devastating or anything, but crazy nonetheless. I act like I have no time on my hands, like i'm super busy and all, but I realised only today how much time I waste lying down and obsessing about college and everything before that.
Crap.
And I am terribly sleepy right now. As I have been for the last week.
Dear God. I sound absolutely demented. I just... am so scared about everything. I was never like this, because I was so used to everything going smoothly. But once you stumble past lots of bumps (last year) you can't help but be really cautious. I guess I'm being a little too cautious. I don't know why I have to be so pessimistic. I mean, okay, last year was screwed up, but that doesn't mean this year will be. Does it?
Sigh. I think I'll leave now.
I think too much. :( |
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| Busy |
[Jun. 22nd, 2008|04:04 pm] |
busybusybusybusybusybusybusy
ayiyiyiyiyi. |
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[Jun. 14th, 2008|09:17 pm] |
I feel terrible right now. Just terrible.
I just hate how I take people for granted, feel that they'll always be there.
And then, I just end up hurting them like crazy. Damn. |
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[Jun. 13th, 2008|07:00 pm] |
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This world has NO dignity at all. |
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[Jun. 12th, 2008|12:25 pm] |
Well.
Now I have this huge SAT book and CD.
And four months.
Crap. |
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| a PROPER update ^_^ |
[Jun. 11th, 2008|07:09 pm] |
Why are we all so in love with the ordinary that anything out of the ordinary is shunned??
Okay, okay. I'll stop with these scrap sized, 'philosophical' entries/questions which seem to be coming off stupider than I expected.
Bleah.
Anyway. It's quite refreshing, being a nerd again, after the completely unintentional so called 'break'. It's like all the nerdiness is coming back to me. And, believe it or not, I'm overjoyed. I know, it's way too early to celebrate, but hey, a little optimism never hurt anyone.
^_^
Oh, and the first set of tests are over and done with, thank god. And.... someone might be acing math.... :):)
Moving on, I had to take a CT scan today. I know, i know, nothing big. But it was my first scan ever. I've never even taken an X-ray before, so it was kind of cool, today, seeing my skull and all. Very, very cool.
Anyway, I'll be seeing Madhuri on Saturday, finally. And hopefully, it'll be the whole group, if everyone can make it. Which should be really cool, 'cause the last time all seven of us got together properly was the end of tenth grade, so yeah. Can't wait. :))
Well. That's pretty much all that's happening, really. I mean, nothing big. School, home. Tuition. I'm reading a bit. Right now, this book called The Three Mistakes of my Life, by Chetan Bhagat, which is pretty good, minus all the swearing. And, yes, I'm ranting on Blogspot everytime I can, about 12th and the wonderful(!) year ahead.
So. Yeah. That's life at the moment. And, surprisingly, it's not that bad, considering the circumstances.
I'm not going beyond that. Just in case I jinx it.
:)
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